The fall is always a great time for reflection. As the leaves turn and fall to the ground, we look inwards, stay home more and contemplate. This is what this post is all about today.
I landed back on Canadian soil four days ago and I’ve been hit with the dreaded post-vacation blues. You know what I mean, right? After however many days/weeks abroad, sleeping in, sightseeing and soaking up other cultures, you settle back into your home routine and wonder why you live the way you do. You wonder what you can do to change your lifestyle to match those you witnessed abroad. Why can’t my day be so laid-back? Why can’t I live in a small apartment downtown and work a part-time job in a cute flower shop or boutique? Why have I tied myself down with responsibilities and bills to pay?
Oliver said to me yesterday that a lot of what we do is just to pay bills. We work to pay bills. He’s right, you know. But we also have choices we can make to change our current state of affairs. We can downsize, simplify and prioritize. We can, but it’s scary to make such changes sometimes. Have you ever been faced with this dilemma of wanting a different lifestyle but not knowing how to go about it? Another part of me wonders if it’s just too easy to get caught up in the “American Beauty” syndrome of hating the mundane only to realize after having destroyed your life that what you had was pretty darn good.
Can you be grateful for your life but still want to improve it? I think so. At least I hope so. I’m grateful for what I have and am wary of being too greedy for something different. After all, the grass is always greener on the other side. So how do we go about this? I’ve been thinking a lot about it. Baby steps is the way to go, along with a clear list of goals. I think counselors would advise me to envision my life the way I’d like it to be, and then make a list of the necessary steps to get there. It’s important to know that life will never be exactly as you had planned, and thank heavens! Often times when you make changes to get to one destination, life throws you a curve ball and you end up somewhere completely different but even more beautiful than you had ever imagined.
It’s important for me to say this: if my life stayed exactly the way it is now, I’d be happy. I’d still moan about wanting a more creative, fashion-filled career, and the morning commute would still suck out my energy before the day even got started, but I’d also still have my weekends off, lots of holidays, the security of a job that supports me if I’m sick or in need of time off for personal reasons. I wouldn’t bring my work home with me, leaving my mind open to relax and enjoy evenings with my loved ones. I have my health, a loving home, wonderful family and friends and I live in a free, safe country. I don’t have to worry about where my next meal is coming from, or fear that I’m going to be attacked. Life is pretty damn good.
So while I ho and hum over how to be grateful for my life but to take hold of it more and redirect it, I’m going to enjoy this rainy day at work and put on some jazz. Regardless of where you’re at in your life right now, you’re meant to be there and the best thing you can do is to live in this moment now.